| PANAMA PICTURES!!!
-ill put more up later
   
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| MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!
i luv all of you! |
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| earlier tonite i was looking at pictures to put in the senior ad things..... and i was looking at pictures from when i was born and i came across a picture of my grandpa holding me the day i was born..... and i as i sat there staring at the picture of him looking at me, i couldnt quit crying. i miss him alot, idk why it hit me all of a sudden, but it did and it hit me hard. i kept thinkin about how much fun he was. and how he smelled like coffee.... I hated the smell but for some reason it never seemed to bother me when he was around. i always wanted my grandpa to be there for my graduation, i never told neone this but i wanted him to be the one who married me and my future husband. i dont know why all of a sudden i miss him, its been almost 3 years...... but tonite it just hit me that hes really not ever coming back. every year i think hes gonna drive up during christmas break and walk in the door smelling like coffee. but no.... hes up in Heaven..... dont get me wrong im happy hes in heaven. i just wish he was here right now. i didnt get to see him much but when i did i wish i would have cherished the time i had with him. ...... i keep thinkin about that picture and it just makes me cry. why cant i stop crying? why did he have to go? he was special. he loved everyone. he was a preacher, a father, and a grandfather. i know hes up there watching me, but thats not enough. i want him down here sitting next to me so i can tell him how soccer went and how basketball is doing. i want him to come visit before he goes and preaches at lectureships at FHU. i wanna tell him what my college plans are. i want to tell him what my plans are after college. i wanna tell him that i love him one last time...... |
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| well ya know i really dont like to update this thing, but i do it neways..... so lets see here...... my life is pretty boring>
monday we had school as usual, then bball practice. tuesday we played hardin co. and lost, but we played really good most of the game and beat them in the second half haha. yesterday at bball i busted my lip and it was pretty swollen. but in a way it was kind of funny because half of my top lip was fat. haha we play usj tomorrow and i hope we win and i think we can.
well i think im done writing for now.
o this is for lacey: i love pimp juice!!!! wahoo! |
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